WHAT CHANGED MY LIFE, WHO I AM AND HOW I NOW SEE THE WORLD….

I don’t think I have written about this topic previously, if I have…I think it’s important to think about it again.What did change my life, who I am and how I now see the world anyway?

Baptized and Born again in these waters

Years ago, when I lived in Northern Michigan shortly before I divorced and we had lost our little family restaurant, I found a part-time position to make much-needed extra money. It was only part-time and I drove about 25 miles each day of the week, doing what I needed to do. At that time of my life, I wanted to “save the world”, fight for every injustice, was controlling and not at all afraid to speak up for the “underdog”. I was extremely co-dependent and didn’t know it! Now through years of working on myself, reading 4 shelves of self-help books, attending numerous meetings to change who I was I can say, I am a different woman, from the inside out!

It began at the part-time job I held. My middle daughter Amy had just been baptized in the Platte River and I freaked! She had been baptized as a baby, why again? She was on fire as a ” new-born again Christian” I didn’t get it, it blew me away because I had been raised in a traditional church atmosphere and my girls were too. While at work, the computer system needed repairs and the man who came to do it belonged to the church Amy attended and he was completely on fire for the Lord...whew…overwhelming to say the least. While he was there, he did his best to quote scripture after scripture….I was never taught scriptures, it made me more and more uneasy. Then he began to really hammer on my bosses husband who was Jewish….oh my gosh…It was getting way out of control and the sweet Jewish man was kind and quiet but I could tell he was feeling, “enough”….and being the co-dependent I was, had NO way to shift the focus or conversation and especially NOT with a biblical counter quote. By the time I began my long ride home on winding Northern roads in the rain mind you, I was a mess. I cried and I cried. So frustrated that I had been raised a Catholic and yet knew so little in a situation like this.

Then in the middle of my hysterical tears….a miracle. A soft, nondescript voice began speaking to me….it seemed like for hours, but in reality was just fleeting moments. I couldn’t depict if it was either male or female and during the exchange I felt a tremendous sense of calm and peace and wanted the moments to continue on forever. The words spoken, I was told later by respected liturgical ministers, were directly from God. “The Big Guy” they called Him. His words to this day are forever imprinted on my heart and on my soul. ” I AM WHO I AM, BEGIN AT THE BEGINNING, BE WHO YOU ARE”!!!

Wow….my world begin changing at that moment in time. I began my journey to truly know, to become best friends with the Lord, my God. My viewpoints began to change, my skepticism began to vanish, I became more open to the faith of others and less judgmental of their views and beliefs. Wow a “rebirth” of my mind….that began the journey I travel today having the authentic and loving relationship with my Savior.

There are many more synchronizations that have occurred in my life since that day so long ago, I may blog about some in the future. Little miracles and “stop you in your tracks” revelations I had not been aware of before. My life began its transformation to how I see the world today. Who I am becoming and have become and how incredibly my life has been changed. One never knows how one little thing will bring awareness to another or to self. I am grateful for all the circumstances that have brought me to the fork in my road. Change is good, change brings awareness and blessings we never expect.

I hope by sharing this small part of what helped me to begin my journey will also help you. I now live to expect the unexpected, because God has His hand upon my life! And knowing Him more personally, not with all the structure and traditions I had learned has beautified some of those and taught me new ones as well. Jeremiah 29:11 began my travels and still is my favorite scripture of confidence, faith, hope and love….”I have a plan for you says the Lord, not to harm you, but to give you hope and a future”. I can truly say, Jesus is my best friend, my confident, my role model, my Father and the love of my life! He’s walked with me or carried me each step of my way on my journey. May you also find Him who can change your life, help you become who you are meant to be by His divine plan and change the vision you have of your world….one day at a time, moment to moment.  EcxOkht8w7c  (Click on this link)

Blessings to all of you who follow my quirky thoughts and musings….it’s what God has inspired me to do for Him and for you! Blessings today and always.

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